I'm a long while on this Earth but when my time comes?
I like this song.
This exact song.
Found it on Youtube and wanted to save it here.
Now back to Happy.
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Saturday, November 12, 2011
Friday, November 11, 2011
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Happy Veteran's Day.
And now?
Postcards from Happy.
Dear Gentle Readers,
Well first off? I've stopped reading my horoscope. I only read it to point out how wrong the predictions are but didn't have time to read it for at all last week. When I went back and read it, it seemed like such a colossal waste of my time that I just stopped. It's not even close to what happened. Not even close. I figure that will add 10 minutes to my day, an hour and 10 minutes to my week, four hours and 40 minutes to my month, and 48 hours, 480 minutes to my year. That's a total off 55 hours to my year or 2 days and 7 hours of my life per year.
Add to the "already done list" Saved time, added days to my life, and stopped reading horoscope.
As of this week I have hit the tiger right and left. Except for one move, the next 10 moves or so in tai chi class are actually repeats. Hurray for repeats and hurray for a great substitute teacher. Don't get me wrong; I love my regular teachers. It's just nice to have a change up and this sub is great.
Add to my "already done" list. Appx 46 moves out of 108 in Taoist tai chi. Maybe more since some of the remaining moves are repeats. Yay.
If you remember last summer I tried an experiment with how I handle my life. Instead of endless "to do" lists I started writing "already done" lists. I'd wake up each morning and I'd say, "What can I do today that will make today feel like a success?" I wouldn't even write things down. Instead I'd just start doing what I thought I would like to do and then write down what I'd done on my "already done" list. The experience was wildly successful. The resulting "already done" list included things I'd hoped to do for years but hadn't and things that I'd never dreamed that I could do. I began doing things that I'd always wanted to do but didn't because I thought that there were other things I needed to do first. Hurdles. I was most amazed at WB and Pups reactions. I thought that they'd be all kinds of unhappy with this new way of doing things but I soon found out that they were fine with it. Apparently it's a very masculine trait to say this is what I'm going to do and then go do it. It's what climbs mountains and builds sky scrapers. I'm two months into tai chi class and going to the gym to - wait for it - lift weights because of this new way of doing things. I'm still a slacker in that I know how to sit out in the Zen garden in a hammock and enjoy the quiet or goof off (we did go see the Harold and Kumar movie. More later.) I'm just doing my own thing. I'm not asking for a consensus. Nope. Instead I'm saying, "This is my my life. Have a nice day." The people who love me are fine with it and the rest? Meh to them.
Add to my already done list? I'm calling it, "A Year of Being Physical"
Already going to tai chi.
Already going to the gym.
You see I have a plan for my life.
So far?
It's working.
Step one.
Learn 108 movements of Taoist Tai Chi. This is to improve flexibility and balance. I also tried to include graceful movement. Yeah, yeah, I know but I can try to be graceful. The idea is to use the tai chi as a warm up and coool down before a physical activity. No I don't care that right now I still look a bit goofy.
Why?
Because I've been doing the moves that I know and guess what? I am actually using them to warm up and cool down at the gym. It's working for what I've intended it to work for.
Yayayayayayy!
So far no one is laughing or pointing.
Actually they're very supportive.
None of the, "Psst maybe you shouldn't be trying this." Instead? "It's good idea and here's other things you can do as well." Have there been folks who say, "Maybe you should wait?" Yep but I'm thinking that even if it's good intentioned? It's not the best advice for me.
Add to "already done" list?
Go to the gym.
Actually do cardio and lift weights.
Yes, me, the veteran slacker.
Everyday.
LOL I know, hard to believe.
I'm saying thank you to the people who I've talked to about this. My favorite bit of advice came from a very nice complete stranger who told me, "When you do go the gym? You see the folks who are buff? They didn't come that way. We all have to start somewhere." I could hug that guy's neck. When I see the people who are in great shape, I tell myself to keep up the good work.
"But" you say, "What about the fencing?"
"Well, " I say, "I tried on a fencing jacket tonight and between the gear that I can borrow from Pup and the gear that I can use from the fencing club, I should be starting beginning classes soon. I'm going to make the best of the time freed up when they stopped the tai chi tutor sessions to rearrange my schedule and viola', it would seem that it's an even better fit than the all tai chi.
Add to "already done" list
Better schedule of physical activity than before.
Equipment and set up to take fencing.
Like the song says ---
Now then before anyone starts to think, "Ah geeze, another slacker lost to clean living? Naw. I'm still slacker. It's just after years of being other folks "emotional dumpster" I've come upon a new way to look at things.
I just tell them, "Everyone's got a priority and this is mine. Have a great day."
And?
In the words of Hannah Murphy?
"Having fun is THE best revenge."
LOL I'm so happy that cranky has a girl friend, pups growing up, and WB? He actually went with me to the gym.
Double LOL? I was even invited to church and met a pretty famous person who seemed nice.
It's all good.
Love, hugs, and kisses,
The Zen Happiness Experiment thing? It worked.
LOL After many many years? I got my own self to laugh.
Now that is something.
.
.
.
Happy Veteran's Day.
And now?
Postcards from Happy.
Dear Gentle Readers,
Well first off? I've stopped reading my horoscope. I only read it to point out how wrong the predictions are but didn't have time to read it for at all last week. When I went back and read it, it seemed like such a colossal waste of my time that I just stopped. It's not even close to what happened. Not even close. I figure that will add 10 minutes to my day, an hour and 10 minutes to my week, four hours and 40 minutes to my month, and 48 hours, 480 minutes to my year. That's a total off 55 hours to my year or 2 days and 7 hours of my life per year.
Add to the "already done list" Saved time, added days to my life, and stopped reading horoscope.
As of this week I have hit the tiger right and left. Except for one move, the next 10 moves or so in tai chi class are actually repeats. Hurray for repeats and hurray for a great substitute teacher. Don't get me wrong; I love my regular teachers. It's just nice to have a change up and this sub is great.
Add to my "already done" list. Appx 46 moves out of 108 in Taoist tai chi. Maybe more since some of the remaining moves are repeats. Yay.
If you remember last summer I tried an experiment with how I handle my life. Instead of endless "to do" lists I started writing "already done" lists. I'd wake up each morning and I'd say, "What can I do today that will make today feel like a success?" I wouldn't even write things down. Instead I'd just start doing what I thought I would like to do and then write down what I'd done on my "already done" list. The experience was wildly successful. The resulting "already done" list included things I'd hoped to do for years but hadn't and things that I'd never dreamed that I could do. I began doing things that I'd always wanted to do but didn't because I thought that there were other things I needed to do first. Hurdles. I was most amazed at WB and Pups reactions. I thought that they'd be all kinds of unhappy with this new way of doing things but I soon found out that they were fine with it. Apparently it's a very masculine trait to say this is what I'm going to do and then go do it. It's what climbs mountains and builds sky scrapers. I'm two months into tai chi class and going to the gym to - wait for it - lift weights because of this new way of doing things. I'm still a slacker in that I know how to sit out in the Zen garden in a hammock and enjoy the quiet or goof off (we did go see the Harold and Kumar movie. More later.) I'm just doing my own thing. I'm not asking for a consensus. Nope. Instead I'm saying, "This is my my life. Have a nice day." The people who love me are fine with it and the rest? Meh to them.
Add to my already done list? I'm calling it, "A Year of Being Physical"
Already going to tai chi.
Already going to the gym.
You see I have a plan for my life.
So far?
It's working.
Step one.
Learn 108 movements of Taoist Tai Chi. This is to improve flexibility and balance. I also tried to include graceful movement. Yeah, yeah, I know but I can try to be graceful. The idea is to use the tai chi as a warm up and coool down before a physical activity. No I don't care that right now I still look a bit goofy.
Why?
Because I've been doing the moves that I know and guess what? I am actually using them to warm up and cool down at the gym. It's working for what I've intended it to work for.
Yayayayayayy!
So far no one is laughing or pointing.
Actually they're very supportive.
None of the, "Psst maybe you shouldn't be trying this." Instead? "It's good idea and here's other things you can do as well." Have there been folks who say, "Maybe you should wait?" Yep but I'm thinking that even if it's good intentioned? It's not the best advice for me.
Add to "already done" list?
Go to the gym.
Actually do cardio and lift weights.
Yes, me, the veteran slacker.
Everyday.
LOL I know, hard to believe.
I'm saying thank you to the people who I've talked to about this. My favorite bit of advice came from a very nice complete stranger who told me, "When you do go the gym? You see the folks who are buff? They didn't come that way. We all have to start somewhere." I could hug that guy's neck. When I see the people who are in great shape, I tell myself to keep up the good work.
"But" you say, "What about the fencing?"
"Well, " I say, "I tried on a fencing jacket tonight and between the gear that I can borrow from Pup and the gear that I can use from the fencing club, I should be starting beginning classes soon. I'm going to make the best of the time freed up when they stopped the tai chi tutor sessions to rearrange my schedule and viola', it would seem that it's an even better fit than the all tai chi.
Add to "already done" list
Better schedule of physical activity than before.
Equipment and set up to take fencing.
Like the song says ---
Now then before anyone starts to think, "Ah geeze, another slacker lost to clean living? Naw. I'm still slacker. It's just after years of being other folks "emotional dumpster" I've come upon a new way to look at things.
I just tell them, "Everyone's got a priority and this is mine. Have a great day."
And?
In the words of Hannah Murphy?
"Having fun is THE best revenge."
LOL I'm so happy that cranky has a girl friend, pups growing up, and WB? He actually went with me to the gym.
Double LOL? I was even invited to church and met a pretty famous person who seemed nice.
It's all good.
Love, hugs, and kisses,
The Zen Happiness Experiment thing? It worked.
LOL After many many years? I got my own self to laugh.
Now that is something.
.
.
.
Friday, November 4, 2011
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If you're from the future? Say before April 27,2012?
Keep reading till you find the link back..
We gotta get you a... LOL. After years and years of not being in a good place to commit to anything other than Pup it would seem that it might actually be my turn to be --- in love?
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL
Well that would be funny.
Good but funny and all kinds of ironic.
Oh yeah... Dear Mom and Dad,
Sorry I'll miss all the excitement for the holidays. Sorry I'll miss all the "fun" but well --
Substitute boyfriend for girl friend and...
lol -- There's folks who've invested alot of time trying to convince me and the world that I'm one colosal fcuk up. A slacker.
But -- well -- I think I'll be okay ...
LOL
In other news. Pup and I are thinking about making the new Harold and Kumar 3D movie a Christmas tradition. I'll have to see it first.
Hugs.
Now back to the future with ya'
http://12dotsandablot.blogspot.com/2012/04/blog-post_9069.html Click me
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.
,,,
If you're from the future? Say before April 27,2012?
Keep reading till you find the link back..
We gotta get you a... LOL. After years and years of not being in a good place to commit to anything other than Pup it would seem that it might actually be my turn to be --- in love?
LOL LOL LOL LOL LOL
Well that would be funny.
Good but funny and all kinds of ironic.
Oh yeah... Dear Mom and Dad,
Sorry I'll miss all the excitement for the holidays. Sorry I'll miss all the "fun" but well --
Substitute boyfriend for girl friend and...
lol -- There's folks who've invested alot of time trying to convince me and the world that I'm one colosal fcuk up. A slacker.
But -- well -- I think I'll be okay ...
LOL
In other news. Pup and I are thinking about making the new Harold and Kumar 3D movie a Christmas tradition. I'll have to see it first.
Hugs.
Now back to the future with ya'
http://12dotsandablot.blogspot.com/2012/04/blog-post_9069.html Click me
.
.
,,,
Dear Gentle Reader,
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Hmm. Random.
Have been having fun and not so much fun while gone. Got Sunday's obligation over and done. The good news was that WB went with me to keep me company. The better news is the day is over and we made it through in good shape. The bad news? LOL Not really any because it's over and I no longer have the "big O" (obiligation) to annoy. Yay!
For the funs stuff?
Well we got through some of the kicks in tai chi and I must say they weren't near as bad as I thought they would be. This isn't braggin it's just sheer relief that I could stand on one foot with hands in the air and then turn and kick. It's fun and MUCH better than what I had to do Sunday which frankly felt like a waste of time.
Next up in tai chi? According to the list it's something to do with a tiger. Looks like fun.
Halloween came and went with a lovely surprise. Growls and strange noises in our woods but all the pups and chickens were stil here the next morning. Whatever was walking in our woods believed us when we said aloud that the police were on speed dial.
And for the record? They still are.
The weather is turning cold but the wind on the lake is up. Good if you like to sail.
While there are some parts of life that are still a bit cranky? I'm happy to report that one of the cranky people now officially has a girl friend. This is a relief as he's now preoccupied with her and I no longer have any obligations. Can visit the lake in peace and finally enjoy it.
That's probably the best news.
Have boat work and yard work and other stuff to do. Hot weather is behind us for a while and I have plans for work here. Have met some nice folks and looking forward to seeing what will happen. Enjoying the tai chi very much. Only 65 of the 108 moves to go. Will be taking fencing classes soon. I love being a beginner in this stuff. No worries. And the holidays will soon be here.
Took awhile to get here but you know what?
Life is good.
AuthorAnn
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Hmm. Random.
Have been having fun and not so much fun while gone. Got Sunday's obligation over and done. The good news was that WB went with me to keep me company. The better news is the day is over and we made it through in good shape. The bad news? LOL Not really any because it's over and I no longer have the "big O" (obiligation) to annoy. Yay!
For the funs stuff?
Well we got through some of the kicks in tai chi and I must say they weren't near as bad as I thought they would be. This isn't braggin it's just sheer relief that I could stand on one foot with hands in the air and then turn and kick. It's fun and MUCH better than what I had to do Sunday which frankly felt like a waste of time.
Next up in tai chi? According to the list it's something to do with a tiger. Looks like fun.
Halloween came and went with a lovely surprise. Growls and strange noises in our woods but all the pups and chickens were stil here the next morning. Whatever was walking in our woods believed us when we said aloud that the police were on speed dial.
And for the record? They still are.
The weather is turning cold but the wind on the lake is up. Good if you like to sail.
While there are some parts of life that are still a bit cranky? I'm happy to report that one of the cranky people now officially has a girl friend. This is a relief as he's now preoccupied with her and I no longer have any obligations. Can visit the lake in peace and finally enjoy it.
That's probably the best news.
Have boat work and yard work and other stuff to do. Hot weather is behind us for a while and I have plans for work here. Have met some nice folks and looking forward to seeing what will happen. Enjoying the tai chi very much. Only 65 of the 108 moves to go. Will be taking fencing classes soon. I love being a beginner in this stuff. No worries. And the holidays will soon be here.
Took awhile to get here but you know what?
Life is good.
AuthorAnn
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Thursday, October 27, 2011
108 taoist tai chi movements
1 Opening of Tai Chi
2 Left Grasp Bird's Tail
3 Grasp Bird's Tail
4 Single Whip
5 Step Up and Raise Hands
6 White Stork Spreads Wings
7 Brush Knee (left)
8 Strum the Pei Pa
9 Brush Knee and Twist Step (left)
10 Brush Knee and Twist Step (right)
11 Brush Knee (left)
12 Strum the Pei Pa
13 Brush Knee and Twist Step (left)
14 Chop with Fist
15 Step Up, Deflect, Parry, Punch
16 Appear to Close Entrance
17 Cross Hands
18 Carry Tiger to Mountain
19 Diagonal single Whip
20 Fist Under Elbow
21 Go Back to Ward Off Monkey (right)
22 Go Back to Ward Off Monkey (left)
23 Go Back to Ward Off Monkey (right)
24 Slanting Flying
25 Step Up and Raise Hands
26 White Stork Spreads Wings
27 Brush Knee (left)
28 Needle at Sea Bottom
29 Fan Penetrates through the Back
30 Turn and Chop with Fist
31 Step Up, Deflect, Parry, Punch
32 Step Up to Grasp Bird's Tail
33 Single Whip
34 Wave Hands Like Clouds (five times)
35 Single Whip
36 Reach Up to Pat Horse
37 Separate Foot to Right
38 Separate Foot to Left
39 Turn and Kick
40 Brush Knee and Twist Step (left)
41 Brush Knee and Twist Step (right)
42 Step Up and Punch
43 Turn and Chop with Fist
44 Step Up, Deflect, Parry, Punch
45 Right Foot Kick
46 Hit Tiger at Left
47 Hit Tiger at Right
48 Right Foot Kick
49 Strike Ears with Fists
50 Left Foot Kick
51 Turn and Kick
52 Chop with Fist
53 Step Up, Deflect, Parry, Punch
54 Appear to Close Entrance
55 Cross Hands
56 Carry Tiger to Mountain
57 Whip Out Horizontally
58 Parting Wild Horse's Mane (right)
59 Parting Wild Horse's Mane (left)
60 Parting Wild Horse's Mane (right)
61 Parting Wild Horse's Mane (left)
62 Parting Wild Horse's Mane (right)
63 Left Grasp Bird's Tail
64 Step Up to Grasp Bird's Tail
65 Single Whip
66 Fair Lady Works Shuttles (left)
67 Fair Lady Works Shuttles (right)
68 Fair Lady Works Shuttles (left)
69 Fair Lady Works Shuttles (right)
70 Left Grasp Bird's Tail
71 Step Up to Grasp Bird's Tail
72 Single Whip
73 Wave Hands Like Clouds
74 Single Whip
75 Creeping Low Like a Snake
76 Golden Cock Stands on One Leg (left)
77 Golden Cock Stands on One Leg (right)
78 Go Back to Ward Off Monkey (right)
79 Go Back to Ward Off Monkey (left)
80 Slanting Flying
81 Step Up and Raise Hands
82 White Stork Spreads Wings
83 Brush Knee (left)
84 Needle at Sea Bottom
85 Fan Penetrates through the Back
86 White Snake Turns and Puts Out Tongue
87 Step Up, Deflect, Parry, Punch
88 Step Up to Grasp Bird's Tail
89 Single Whip
90 Wave Hands Like Clouds
91 Single Whip
92 Reach Up to Pat Horse
93 Cross Hands to Penetrate
94 Turn and Kick
95 Chop with Fist
96 Brush Knee and Punch
97 Step Up to Grasp Bird's Tail
98 Whip to One Side
99 Creeping Low Like a Snake
100 Step Up to Seven Stars
101 Retreat to Ride Tiger
102 Turn Around to Sweep Lotus
103 Draw Bow to Shoot Tiger
104 Chop with Fist
105 Step Up, Deflect, Parry, Punch
106 Appear to Close Entrance
107 Cross Hands
108 Closing of Tai Chi
The Ca Co Co Nut Club 1 AM
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Just you, me, and a little club in the middle of cyber land...
(aka my tai chi class)
Number 5?
An no not LouBega ( who is fantastico)
Instead?
Sha- boom - boom - bayabee...
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Just you, me, and a little club in the middle of cyber land...
(aka my tai chi class)
Number 5?
An no not LouBega ( who is fantastico)
Instead?
Sha- boom - boom - bayabee...
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Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Allert. Alert. Hey you!
Today is National Make a Difference Day. Today? I'm going to make a difference by smiling at everyone and saying, "Hello" to people.
What are you going to do?
If you are here to wonder like I do if God ever had a hang nail? Skip this post and go to the next.
If you are from Ireland and your name is David?
Hang on a sec.
And read this.
Dear David,
I am sorry.
There I said it and it only took 10 years give or take to do so.
You cannot seriously still be mad at me.
I am funny. I am sweet. AND?
I have my own sail boat.
:D
I'm also well on my way to becoming a tai chi "swan". Graceful would be my new middle name.
If you're from Ireland but are not named David?
Welcome anyway.
Regards,
Writer Ann
Now then, what if God was one of us?
.
:D
Today is National Make a Difference Day. Today? I'm going to make a difference by smiling at everyone and saying, "Hello" to people.
What are you going to do?
If you are here to wonder like I do if God ever had a hang nail? Skip this post and go to the next.
If you are from Ireland and your name is David?
Hang on a sec.
And read this.
Dear David,
I am sorry.
There I said it and it only took 10 years give or take to do so.
You cannot seriously still be mad at me.
I am funny. I am sweet. AND?
I have my own sail boat.
:D
I'm also well on my way to becoming a tai chi "swan". Graceful would be my new middle name.
If you're from Ireland but are not named David?
Welcome anyway.
Regards,
Writer Ann
Now then, what if God was one of us?
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:D
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"...I wonder, if we're made in Gods image, did God ever have a hang nail or a migraine or maybe labor pains? Did he or she ever pull an all nighter ?
Or cry?
Would you trust God more if he or she did experience the pains of being alive or would you rather God was above the suffering?..."
from
Recoil and Pain
by
C Anne Ford
10-25-11
PS I'm not sure that this is Alanis Morrisette but the song fit.
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Sunday, October 16, 2011
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All women are beautiful.
If you want to see them shine?
Give them credit for all the good they do in life.
And a hug. Definitely a hug.
I'm "hear" but only for a little bit.
My stomach is grumbling. Part of me wants to go eat chips and the other part is saying, "Noooo. Be good. Eat the green veggies. Eat the orange carrots. DO NOT EAT THE ICE CREAM THAT'S HIDDEN
THE BACK OF THE FREEZER. STOP. RIGHT NOW. THIS IS YOUR GOOD SELF SPEAKING AND I. AM. NOT. KIDDING..."
I'm thinking of just drinking the chocolate syrup. I hear it's got healthful benefits to go along with all the sugar and fat.
Then again ice cream does have calcium in it. Calcium is good for my bones. Preventing osteoporosis.
That's important.
It's also breast cancer awareness month. Time to "man up" and wear something pink.
That? Really is important.
It's sunny outside.
Think I'll go take a walk.
BBL.
CAnne:D
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.
All women are beautiful.
If you want to see them shine?
Give them credit for all the good they do in life.
And a hug. Definitely a hug.
I'm "hear" but only for a little bit.
My stomach is grumbling. Part of me wants to go eat chips and the other part is saying, "Noooo. Be good. Eat the green veggies. Eat the orange carrots. DO NOT EAT THE ICE CREAM THAT'S HIDDEN
THE BACK OF THE FREEZER. STOP. RIGHT NOW. THIS IS YOUR GOOD SELF SPEAKING AND I. AM. NOT. KIDDING..."
I'm thinking of just drinking the chocolate syrup. I hear it's got healthful benefits to go along with all the sugar and fat.
Then again ice cream does have calcium in it. Calcium is good for my bones. Preventing osteoporosis.
That's important.
It's also breast cancer awareness month. Time to "man up" and wear something pink.
That? Really is important.
It's sunny outside.
Think I'll go take a walk.
BBL.
CAnne:D
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Wednesday, October 12, 2011
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Dear God, I know that you're busy. What with famine, flood, wars, and other natural and unnatural disasters, you've probably got your handsful. But I was wondering, since you are the God to brought us the Duck Billed Platypus, Dick Chaney, AND Larry King? Could you please help me find other writers and videographers to write this with. I would just be tickled pink to help craft the humor that could result from this epic battle between good and not so good. Come on God, surely the higher up who developed Robot Chicken and Homer Simpson would like to see what can be done with this. I know I would. Hugs, AuthorAnn .
12dots' disclaimer
This is 12 dots and a blot, a writer's journal.
A fiction writer's journal. (And poet)
Like it's predecessor, fact and fiction co exist here.
If you do not know which is the fact and which is the fiction?
Do not ASSume.
Ask.
New part:
I know that this isn't easy to understand but this blog while it contains fiction isn't designed to deceive you or anyone. I do however write fiction in this blog and I don't want it to cause ANY misunderstanding.
I really and truly do not.
Happy reading.
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LOL
Ah no. Can't I just do some kind of 1K fun walk?
http://toughmudder.com/events/georgia-2012/?utm_medium=cpc&gclid=CKHy3-yq46sCFcECQAodoE5ZNw&WT.term=mud+run&utm_campaign=%28TSM%29+Display+-+Georgia+Initial&utm_source=google&WT.medium=cpc&WT.campaign=%28TSM%29+Display+-+Georgia+Initial&WT.srch=1&WT.content=text&WT.source=google&WT.mc_ev=google&utm_content=&WT.mc_id=google.%28TSM%29+Display+-+Georgia+Initial&utm_term=mud+run&cshift_ck=3adfbac0-b594-4339-8dc1-343a9e0652e7cszApqJ9fJ
"Whoa ah oh oh. Changing is hard. ..."
Ahhhahahahaha. LOL.
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LOL
Ah no. Can't I just do some kind of 1K fun walk?
http://toughmudder.com/events/georgia-2012/?utm_medium=cpc&gclid=CKHy3-yq46sCFcECQAodoE5ZNw&WT.term=mud+run&utm_campaign=%28TSM%29+Display+-+Georgia+Initial&utm_source=google&WT.medium=cpc&WT.campaign=%28TSM%29+Display+-+Georgia+Initial&WT.srch=1&WT.content=text&WT.source=google&WT.mc_ev=google&utm_content=&WT.mc_id=google.%28TSM%29+Display+-+Georgia+Initial&utm_term=mud+run&cshift_ck=3adfbac0-b594-4339-8dc1-343a9e0652e7cszApqJ9fJ
"Whoa ah oh oh. Changing is hard. ..."
Ahhhahahahaha. LOL.
.
...
"...I'm a writer.
That's ONE of my jobs..."
Unless you ask WB and he'll say my actual job is to be some kind of voodoo Pin cushion that people can try to prick because their own life isn't exactly good. So they try to kick me instead.
That's his opinion.
When I started my experiement with the Zen moment, I didn't realize just how powerful the experience would be for me. That feeling of doing things for the joy of it. Waking up and saying to myself, "Now what can I do to reach my goals of..." and then doing them (remember all legal and moral) has been life changing.
For so long I've made my way in life thinking, "and is this okay with". I'm not being selfish. I do still consider other folks feelings but now I have this separate kind of self. Which is what FINALLY got me to say, "I'm going to take Tai Chi." Now the Tai Chi folks my philosphically (sp?) think that self should disolve. For me? I'm becoming aware of self.
LOL, wake up.
Anyway it's good for me. I go. I learn. I can't think of any other than tai chi when I do it.
And I'm reconnecting with my body.
There will be alot of "I" and "My" pronouns in the writing to follow. I will promise not to become boring narcissit (again sp).
Also should work on spelling.
Love and kisses,
Ann
PS. The celibacy thing isn't working for me.
And I miss David.
And I miss Newt/Lexi.
And?
I miss going to the theater.
.
It's still rainy outside. Woke up stretching like a cat and diving back under the covers.
Since I've yet to figure out how to exercise and write on the blog? I'm going to have to sign out for a bit.
Back later.
10-12-2011
Anne.
Hugs by the way. The thing I most miss about my old blog was the back and forth through time memory. I also miss chatting with Newt and hearing about Lexi.
And while I do love, love, love my dog? It's not exactly the furry face that I'm looking to wake up with.
LOL And that's when ... I've been coming to the place where I can say good bye to a memory. "Getting on with going forward" sounds like a cliche. Maybe its more "time to make a decision" or "perhaps you should stop procrastinating and just go say hello and find out what's next"?
Ireland is a long way away and he did say that he'd never talk to me again.
Maybe time has softened his heart. I don't want to keep "locked" in this memory box". "Whoa a oh oh. Changing is hard."
.
It's rainy and cool. I'm sitting on the edge of the bed covered in one of those soft polar fleece blankets. Domi is curled up in a ball. After weeks of heat it's as if someone FINALLY fixed the airconditioner and now it's lovely and sleepy and I'm thinking that if I could? I'd crawl back under the covers and read a book. Yesterday I was up at 4am washing clothes, feeding animals, cleaning pens, etc. Today? Well thanks to yesterday's industrious (spelling again) spurt, I've a kind of slack day.
The only thing missing is a good conversation in bed.
The kind that is about anything but bills, what Pups going to do, chores, etc.
The "R" word.
Romance.
LOL.
I'm thinking that the this road trip is necessary.
.
"...I'm a writer.
That's ONE of my jobs..."
Unless you ask WB and he'll say my actual job is to be some kind of voodoo Pin cushion that people can try to prick because their own life isn't exactly good. So they try to kick me instead.
That's his opinion.
When I started my experiement with the Zen moment, I didn't realize just how powerful the experience would be for me. That feeling of doing things for the joy of it. Waking up and saying to myself, "Now what can I do to reach my goals of..." and then doing them (remember all legal and moral) has been life changing.
For so long I've made my way in life thinking, "and is this okay with". I'm not being selfish. I do still consider other folks feelings but now I have this separate kind of self. Which is what FINALLY got me to say, "I'm going to take Tai Chi." Now the Tai Chi folks my philosphically (sp?) think that self should disolve. For me? I'm becoming aware of self.
LOL, wake up.
Anyway it's good for me. I go. I learn. I can't think of any other than tai chi when I do it.
And I'm reconnecting with my body.
There will be alot of "I" and "My" pronouns in the writing to follow. I will promise not to become boring narcissit (again sp).
Also should work on spelling.
Love and kisses,
Ann
PS. The celibacy thing isn't working for me.
And I miss David.
And I miss Newt/Lexi.
And?
I miss going to the theater.
.
It's still rainy outside. Woke up stretching like a cat and diving back under the covers.
Since I've yet to figure out how to exercise and write on the blog? I'm going to have to sign out for a bit.
Back later.
10-12-2011
Anne.
Hugs by the way. The thing I most miss about my old blog was the back and forth through time memory. I also miss chatting with Newt and hearing about Lexi.
And while I do love, love, love my dog? It's not exactly the furry face that I'm looking to wake up with.
LOL And that's when ... I've been coming to the place where I can say good bye to a memory. "Getting on with going forward" sounds like a cliche. Maybe its more "time to make a decision" or "perhaps you should stop procrastinating and just go say hello and find out what's next"?
Ireland is a long way away and he did say that he'd never talk to me again.
Maybe time has softened his heart. I don't want to keep "locked" in this memory box". "Whoa a oh oh. Changing is hard."
.
It's rainy and cool. I'm sitting on the edge of the bed covered in one of those soft polar fleece blankets. Domi is curled up in a ball. After weeks of heat it's as if someone FINALLY fixed the airconditioner and now it's lovely and sleepy and I'm thinking that if I could? I'd crawl back under the covers and read a book. Yesterday I was up at 4am washing clothes, feeding animals, cleaning pens, etc. Today? Well thanks to yesterday's industrious (spelling again) spurt, I've a kind of slack day.
The only thing missing is a good conversation in bed.
The kind that is about anything but bills, what Pups going to do, chores, etc.
The "R" word.
Romance.
LOL.
I'm thinking that the this road trip is necessary.
.
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