Friday, June 3, 2011

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I'm not sure if this is my Zen moment or not.

There's a old Sunday School song about the folly of building your house upon the sand. I never entirely believed that song because I lived on the coast where folks not only built their houses upon the sand, they rebuilt their houses upon the sand after yet another hurricane washed them away. I'm sitting here thinking that building your house on the sand should much more faith in God. You had faith that THIS time surely God would honor your faith by just leaving you be to enjoy the view.
And then, even though you know deep in your heart that it's coming, he sends something like Hurricane Katina.

I am deep in my heart a optimistic person. Even now when I have a very good idea that next "hurricane" is due.  I'm not sure after all that's happened why I'm not a raging pessimist or at the very least a cynic. Maybe I'm alot like that herpetologist fella , Bryan. We know that some snakes bite. Yet we still study them and care about their lives.

And yes, post and this day is more than just about the study of snakes.



from


Snakes, "Snakes, and Trusting in Love

a work in progress by

c anne ford,  6-3-11

all rights reserved by the author

(sorry about that last part but well it's a legal thing.




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7 comments:

  1. I am a writer.June 3, 2011 at 8:08 AM

    Woke up in a writing mood today. Yesterday evening I finally was able to use the mantra that I've been practicing. It's still not an easy concept so I practice by saying it to myself during the less complicated events of my life. "Somethings are not my fault." IT's alot like that AA prayer that begins, "God grant me the ability..." I think it keeps me sane or at the very least sober when the rest of the world is acting out. The thing is that there are times when stuff happens that even after you know in your heart that it's not your fault that the next thing you say is, "Wow, I thought it might happen but really never believed..."

    The day that Mike left was the most expected yet unexpected event of my life. For weeks after I would wake up, roll over, and say, "Hey Mike what's the day going to be?" and even though I knew he was gone? I was still surprised by it. Then the memory that he'd left and the aftermath.. LOL.

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  2. I am a writer.June 3, 2011 at 8:13 AM

    (LOL Please note that WB is visiting his Mom. She's not doing good. I'm staying here with the dogs and Pup.

    Pups asleep and the house is quiet so I thought that I'd write. )


    This is a sad sotry but a strong one. I'll let you ask about the bits that are true (there are some) and the bits that aren't. You must remember that this is a writing journal not a life journal.

    12dotsablot
    Fact and fiction.

    LOL)


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  3. I am a writer.June 3, 2011 at 8:15 AM

    Back to the story.


    Note to self please remember (The Author Who Cried Wolf.

    Note to readers?

    This is short story fiction. Just saying.


    Now then the story.

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  4. I am a writer.June 3, 2011 at 8:19 AM

    The story will be continued later. Weather reports another hot day and I've still got stuff to do outside. I really prefer to write at the beginning of my day but have been thinking that to thrive in this heat and get some work done, I'm going to have to work during the hot parts of the day.

    Besides I'd like to leave this part sit. Come back later and see if it's still good.

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  5. I am a writer.June 3, 2011 at 8:21 AM

    That would be write during the hot parts of the day. Writing = "work" as in a job.

    I'm a writer.

    That's ONE of my jobs.

    BBL.

    Ann
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  6. I am a writer.October 12, 2011 at 8:53 AM

    "...I'm a writer.

    That's ONE of my jobs..."


    Unless you ask WB and he'll say my actual job is to be some kind of voodoo Pin cushion that people can try to prick because their own life isn't exactly good. So they try to kick me instead.

    That's his opinion.

    When I started my experiement with the Zen moment, I didn't realize just how powerful the experience would be for me. That feeling of doing things for the joy of it. Waking up and saying to myself, "Now what can I do to reach my goals of..." and then doing them (remember all legal and moral) has been life changing.
    For so long I've made my way in life thinking, "and is this okay with". I'm not being selfish. I do still consider other folks feelings but now I have this separate kind of self. Which is what FINALLY got me to say, "I'm going to take Tai Chi." Now the Tai Chi folks my philosphically (sp?) think that self should disolve. For me? I'm becoming aware of self.

    LOL, wake up.

    Anyway it's good for me. I go. I learn. I can't think of any other than tai chi when I do it.

    And I'm reconnecting with my body.

    There will be alot of "I" and "My" pronouns in the writing to follow. I will promise not to become boring narcissit (again sp).

    Also should work on spelling.

    Love and kisses,


    Ann

    PS. The celibacy thing isn't working for me.

    And I miss David.

    And I miss Newt/Lexi.

    And?

    I miss going to the theater.

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    It's still rainy outside. Woke up stretching like a cat and diving back under the covers.

    Since I've yet to figure out how to exercise and write on the blog? I'm going to have to sign out for a bit.
    Back later.

    10-12-2011

    Anne.

    Hugs by the way. The thing I most miss about my old blog was the back and forth through time memory. I also miss chatting with Newt and hearing about Lexi.

    And while I do love, love, love my dog? It's not exactly the furry face that I'm looking to wake up with.

    LOL

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  7. I am a writer.December 4, 2013 at 5:19 PM

    Hello from the future. Today I volunteered to help folks feed folks. I'm not sure why washing all those pots and pans didn't tire me out. Sure I was tired but not bone tired. I was just calm. Good feeling. Very in the moment. Zen.
    And I'm a Baptist.

    Feels good to help.

    Useful.

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    How are you?

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