"A control freak?"
I'm human from a long line of humans.
We spend life times and life times trying to bring order to chaos.
What you call "controlling" is the force that's kept me alive.
It's how we've found fire and voice.
It's why we tell our stories and how we've come to the letters to sentences of words and letters.
Marks that had no meaning till collectively we decided what they meant.
The determination to be heard and understood by the future as well as the past.
It is in us from the moment that we are conceived to make something out of the very essence of life force.
That's not being a control freak.
That's being human.
It's the will to be free.